Today my daughter’s father returns to work. I’m not up for that yet. I keep spontaneously bursting into loud, heaving cries of painful tears. I feel like the inverse of astronaut Scott Kelly in the twin study. Instead of being changed by 7% by this experience, I’ve been changed 93%. On a cellular level, I won’t be the same. My baseline has been forever altered. I try to stay in motion by focusing on getting the house ready to sell, but it’s hard when my body hurts all the time. I just want to hug my daughter and tell her I love her.
Updated: Jun 26, 2019