Day 26

More than one friend has texted me saying I shouldn’t be back at work. I don’t know what they think I should be doing. I get a lot of advice to “take it easy,” or take some “me time.” I don’t know what that means.

I used to really enjoy giving my daughter and myself pedicures or cuddling with her as we ate popcorn and read in bed. I’m not really in the mood to do those things alone.

If I didn’t return to work now, I wouldn’t have a job to return to. The reasons for this are outside the scope of this blog. The point is, they really need me.

I know this work situation would be stressful for other people. Oddly, when you lose the only thing that really matters in your life, your child, you stop fearing loss of any kind. Maybe a 40-year-old institution will close under my leadership and maybe it won’t. I don’t have pride of purpose anymore. I want to be as helpful as I can in my current state.

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