It is human nature to try and find meaning in things. The most important thing I learned in elementary science was the scientific method. There’s no hypothesis as to why this happened to Constance. The control group of my friends’ kids provides no explanation. As my mind fills with memories of Constance, I ask myself why over and over again. Why did this have to happen to my beautiful baby girl?
She was such a joy to have as a child.
She was so happy and fun. I adored her.
She went with me everywhere and I with her.
I can’t experience much of anything without asking myself why she couldn’t be there to enjoy it with me.
With no answers, I try to distract myself with work.
There is always more work to do.
Day 273 is at https://www.wantmybabyback.com/blog/day-273.