I feel like there is far too much conflict in my life. I’m going to work on that in 2019.
Yesterday when a semi-truck driver won’t get off his horn while rolling through side street gridlock I expressed my frustration with him loudly. I wanted him to hear me over his horn. ;) That was not necessary. I shan’t repeat that behavior next year. After I told him how I thought I should be spending his time I calmed down and thought, “Should I yell back, it’s not about you, and I’m having a bad year…well, it’s a little about you being annoyed with that horn, but it’s mostly not.” I didn’t add that footnote.
Earlier the same day I spent over an hour in line to return something I bought the day before because it was too revealing. The cashier told me she wouldn’t take it back because an interior size label was missing. Of course, I hadn’t removed that table in the 16 hours I owned the dress, but she won’t take it back anyway. I should have said, “I am disappointed that you would punish me for your product issue.” That is not what I said. I do that differently in 2019 too.
My plan to have less conflict in 2019 is meditation, restraint, healthy vegan diet (potential loop hole for vegetarian meals at Michelin Star restaurants), less alcohol, more time at the gym, and boundaries. If you have any suggestions for ways to stay calm, please connect to me on social media. It should be easier for me to go along to get along in 2019; I’m running out of people to die or things to lose. I suppose it’s normal when you lose everything to then lose your cool if not your mind. Let us try to avoid that together, shall we?