Today is New Year’s Day. It is the first New Year’s Day without my one and only child, Constance. Holidays aren’t holidays without her. They are just days when I don’t have the distraction of work.
Today starts the first calendar year of my life without my daughter. My heart is broken.
I have a lot to resolve to do this year if I’m going to live for my child and myself.
A Grieving Mom’s New Year’s Resolutions
Written on her first New Year’s Day without her child
By Rachelle Jervis, Constance’s Mama | From WantMyBabyBack.com
I resolve to remember all of the wonderful things about my daughter that made her the great joy of my life.
I resolved to stop posting cry face emojis under my friends’ photos of their kids and families. There’s no need to be a bummer.
I resolve to try and eat a healthy diet whenever I can despite that just yesterday a waiter literally mimed wringing my neck with her bare hands when I told her I was vegan. Yes, there was butter in their baklava.
I resolve to try and exercise every day but not be the kind of annoying person who talks about going to the gym nearly as much as they do it.
I resolve to manage all my resources with respect, especially my time.
I resolve not to use alcohol as a method of managing my grief or help me get through sleepless nights missing my baby.
I resolve to be thankful for all the people who help me get through this.
I resolve to keep Constance’s memory alive through giving time and money to her charities.
I resolve to share what I learn on this journey so that I may help others.
I resolve to try and treat my broken heart with the same tenderness that I would want my daughter to treat hers if she was missing me.