I have this rule that I don't let my social media profile picture get more than a couple of years old. For professional reasons, I don't want people to be unable to identify me at a public event or for them to be surprised by my age.
Since Constance has passed I look like I've aged 10 years and feel like I've aged 100. My smiles aren't reaching my eyes or my heart.
Now more than ever I realize the importance of photos in recording and recalling memories. I am taking photos every day and frequently posting them to Instagram. Just as a side note, it is important for my day job that I'm active on social media. As I scroll through everything I've posted over the last three hundred days I see a heartbroken sad woman. I don't see a person that anyone would want to meet.