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Day 359

Updated: Jun 27, 2019

My mom had to have surgery. I went to the hospital in an effort to support her. There is a lot of waiting when a loved one has scheduled surgery. They register and you wait, they check in and you wait, they get changed, and you wait, the doctor talks to them and you wait, they go back for the surgery and you wait, they go to recovery and you wait, they wake up and you wait, they get discharged and you wait.

I couldn't help spending all that time thinking and talking about the last time I waited for a loved one to get out of surgery. It was the when Constance had emergency brain surgery, the day she passed.

My mom and stepdad where there when Constance was born. Years ago when Constance was hospitalized for severe seizures they were there. The day that Constance passed I simply text them to come to the hospital. They left work, drove three hours, and were there with me and Constance's father. There's an unnatural, agitating feeling without Constance. She's my daughter, my best friend, my life. My stepdad and I talked about missing Constance and quietly teared up.

My mom recovered well from the surgery. It was nice being able to do my small part. Keeping her company, arguing with her about if she should get pain medication, picking up her prescription pain medicine with my stepdad, and getting her saltines. It is nice to be able to take care of someone you love again.


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Membre inconnu
10 mars 2019

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Membre inconnu
08 mars 2019

You are a good daughter.


Membre inconnu
08 mars 2019

I just wanted to let you know that I am still reading every post of your blog. Often your posts make me want to say something, but I don't comment as I cannot find words serves much of a purpose - it can't make it better and there's little comfort can my words bring in this situation. But I wanted to let you know I am still here, reading your blog and willing that your pain becomes more bearable. I wish I could talk to you and give you a massive hug and there's always that available in London for you (and does travel too), but being unable to do that right now, just to let you know, I am…

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