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Day 1262



Years ago, the site of ambulance lights would inspire me to say a secret silent prayer for the patient's health. When Constance was diagnosed with autism, after innumerable prayers for her well-being, I gave up praying for anyone's health.


Now ambulances take me back to Constance and my ride from one hospital to another the day she died. On more than one occasion I’ve burst into tears, my heart racing, my vision blurring. Last week I had to take an exit off the interstate to avoid two ambulances as they moved at the speed of the gridlock despite their sirens.


The grief doesn’t get easier. It still physically and emotionally hurts.


I’m isolated in a home where no one else knew her. Now as I pet my puppy, my secret thoughts are of Constance.


Today would be Constance’s birthday. We’d have a party, make a fuss, and she would enjoy herself. Today I will donate to charities in her memory, cry, and reminisce.

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Okänd medlem
28 aug. 2021

Hi Rachelle,

You and Constance are never far from my thoughts. What a doll, that girl! I trust you are doing very well. Take extra good care of yourself. Aloha ❤️ 🌱🌹🍃💐🌿🌺🍃🌸🌱

Gilla
Okänd medlem
29 aug. 2021
Svarar

Thank you. I appreciate your thoughts. Aloha.

Gilla

Okänd medlem
28 aug. 2021

Thank you for sharing.

Gilla

Okänd medlem
27 aug. 2021


Gilla

Okänd medlem
27 aug. 2021

I think of you often, with love.

Gilla
Okänd medlem
29 aug. 2021
Svarar

Thank you. You too.

Gilla
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