I am stopping focusing my energy on how angry I am at on all the things Constance missed out on. I’m retraining my mind.
Each day I am meditating on all of the happy memories I have of her. I’m trying to make my brain to be a slide presentation of all the pheasant times she did have. Some days I spend a little time on it and some a lot.
I have to live with the voice in my head for the rest of my life and only I can decide if that voice is an affirming, uplifting one or a rage filled angry one.
Day 333 is posted at https://www.wantmybabyback.com/blog/day-333.